Evolving relationships.

 

Things certainly are feeling different with me as those at the forum can well imagine following Mum's death recently not least with the continuing business of organizing the service with all the arrangements and potential options available.

But in many ways it feels more like a new start as the old and sometimes troubled relationship with dad usually from a single minded obession of his interests to the point of too often just taking us as children to where he wanted to go or changing the tv program to one only he really wanted as if we were just passengers as he starts to drop those old barriers, talking more about what WE might like to do and accept he MAY of got things a bit wrong.

It also means I have to adapt too, responding more with maturity, letting go of past grudges, be prepared to work WITH him, accepting his authority Man to Boy and metaphorically at least stop blowing a raspberry in his general direction because of past issues.

With that comes another need which is to accept for the first time in a long while some growing pains as I adapt to and master a changed relationship with the complications of being more emotionally more child-like with my needs.

He knows and accepts that side of me.