Of bears and things

 Not feeling that great today I'm afraid so I'm upstairs and resting which kind of takes me on to something that is very much a part of this life.

Perhaps for some the last memory you might of had of handling a teddy bear might of been toward the last days of your schooling when it may of been your teams mascot.

I can recall being seen with a teddy much above thirteen was seen as a a wee bit embarrassing if you were a boy especially if you were sharing spaces such as a dorm or a tent camping.

I was never really like that at home although they could only be the odd one on a shelf at home and not seen to be had been played with although I'd hid the odd small one in my room to put by the pillow at night.

You really wanted him always with you like taking him out but unlike girls who get away with cute stuffy backpacks we never could once we started to be seen as  "big boys" not least cos teddy is the one thing you could tell your secrets to and just listen.

Although he's a bit dear at some £116.99 wouldn't you want a schoolboy  teddy with his very own satchel and gift of a cone of sweets for your class?

Recovering Chris edition

As some of you might of gathered I was unwell for a few days with a Migraine last week so not an awful lot got done because when that happens the curtains have to be drawn, the computer switched off and put away and naturally the tv too and that's besides these Compact Fluorescent bulbs we've had since the EU directive against regular incandescent bulbs.
I actually find that sort of bulb triggering.
I've had these migraines pretty much from the age of five or six haven been to the doctors regularly in all that time and when I was at boarding school I was often down in the sick bay for a day or two with them being kept an eye on.
You know Andy who is almost as old as I, spent most of his time in my clutches as I was cuddling him lying on top of my bed and actually that's him on the left. 

Yes folks that actually is me in daytime dressed in 'proper' school shorts sat on a couch with him on my lap trying to take a picture holding the camera above me, praying the focus was going to be in range as you have the normal 0.8 meter to infinity auto focus and a so-called Macro mode which strictly speaking isn't unlike my Minolta film Camera and the life size adapter to the 50mm 'standard lens' that gives 1:1 images but is usable for big flowers or models.
And by the way my skin looks really 'fresh' being that smooth regardless of 'bone' age I actually am cos I look much younger than those years!!!
I'd like to thank everybody including Sammy for their best wishes during this period cos feeling cared for does make a difference and it should be possible for us to support each other as boys in a way we're comfortable with.
Speaking personally I feel more comfortable with the support and understanding of males rather than more feminine sympathy and what to me feels too 'hemmed' in and intense.

On Friday we have more schoolish talk